yesterday was:
1384/12/12
2006/3/3
1427/2/2
specail day in calenders. wasnt it?

we are rebuilding the 1st floor of the house. one of the workers that work on the house is a 18 year old boy. today i went upstair to see their work that i heard him singing:
"zendegi ay zendegi...
khaste am
khaste am"

translation:
"life! oh life!
i'm tired"

his father was sent to jail when he was 3. he is living with a 15 year old brother and his mother. so he is the one who works to support a family.
when he was singing the song i liked to stay and talk to him. tell him that i'm tired too. that well... i'm not doing physical works. i'm not worried about feeding a family. i don't lack money. but i'm just as tired. so tired that i love to listen to him singing "khaste am, khaste am". that i lack too much too. i lack something that i can't buy it even with selling the earth, the universe. that what i lack can be what he never lacks in his future. that i would envy him. that i do envy him. and i am tired too.
i didn't have the chance to tell him any of these. i just ran downstairs. made some benana milk for us.
when i asked him to stop his work to drink the benana milk he blushed. i stayed back till he drank it all. when he was returning the glass, i asked if he liked it. he nodded yes and blushed again. i'm sure he would've blushed with every other word. i'm sure that he never had ....
and he also never had....
he hadnt even ...
or even....

i've made some new decisions today. that from now on on the way back home i will get off the taxi sooner, so that i have a long way walk to home. actually long way run to the house. this will have some advantages of course. i'll save 50 tomans a day! i'll do some excersize. and of course i can think better when i run.
there of course exist some disadvantages too. one is that mommy didnt like my idea at all and claimed that i'm not a child anymore!!! there are more. but i'm an optimist. so let all the disadvantages be! i do what i like to do.

room status: everyone's asleep except me and my sister. the fun thing is that lately my sister and i are again sleeping in the same room and again after 10 years or more on the same bed. (my parents twin bed). we'll be sleeping in this room and on this bed till we have the house ready. that means for almost a month! NO NO. don't get me wrong! I aint complaining! :)
music: demis roussos--->forever and ever
sister: reading a book
me: happy and worried about tommorrow exam
if you ask why i keep on writing here while i always nag about lack of time? that's because i'm the one who likes experesing herself in any possible way. or she'll blow up. there are so many people like this. believe me. you can even consider it a sickness! i myself consider it a sickness.
have you read Milan Kundra's Immortaliy? read it and you'll know!
http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0060932384/002-1963892-5276069?v=glance&n=283155

so, writing for me is like eating and sleeping. so, don't ever question me about this again;)